The Power of Choice
I wish to share with you the life-changing experiences I have had
in the past two months. The challenges have been great and the
blessings, even more. I now have an even deeper understanding of the
power of choice. We all have a choice about how
to see each one of our experiences, each one of the people in our lives,
and each one of the circumstances that presents itself to us.
My most recent “journey” started in late spring, when I found out that I
was pregnant. I felt much joy and excitement! I was thrilled that the
baby spirit with whom I had been communicating for years was soon going
to be joining my family and me.
But my excitement quickly turned to confusion and apprehension when I
started experiencing miscarriage symptoms. These symptoms lasted for two
weeks. During this time I prayed and meditated often. I talked to my
Higher Self, angels, and the spirit of this baby. I told them that it
was my intention to create a reality that would be in alignment with the
highest good for myself, my family, the baby, and others involved. I
trusted that this reality would be the outcome.
After blood tests and an ultrasound, my midwives told me that I had
indeed miscarried. I was very surprised because I still felt pregnant! I
could feel something was not quite right physically, but I was too
emotionally clouded by my grief. During that following week, I honored
my feelings of loss, sadness, anger, and disappointment. It was
important for me to feel those emotions and to not judge myself for
feeling them.
 Even
though I was feeling distraught, I remembered that I create my reality
with my thoughts, beliefs and my Higher Self’s goals for my lifetime.
Knowing this gave me peace of mind, even though I could not see the big
picture yet.
I thought I was on my way to clarity and understanding, but I would soon
find out that my ordeal was not over. On the last Sunday in June, I
ended up in the emergency room with intense abdominal pain and bleeding.
An emergency laparoscopy confirmed that I had an ectopic pregnancy, and
that one of my fallopian tubes had ruptured. The doctor had to remove
the damaged tube and an embryo that was not developing normally.
Needless to say, this was devastating to me, not only because of the
physical pain, but the emotional confusion as well.
For the past month, I have been recuperating physically and emotionally,
and the healing at all levels has been miraculous! From the moment I
woke up from surgery, I felt an inner peace and was able to accept what
happened. I truly believe that while I was undergoing surgery, my Higher
Self and my angels showed me all the blessings that would come out of
this. Although I did not consciously remember all of them at the time, I
knew that it would be my choice to SEE these blessings.
A week later, I had an “Aha” moment when
suddenly it all made sense. I then knew I had the power… the power to
choose what this experience meant to me. I am choosing to focus on Love.
I am choosing to see the blessings, which are already many:
1. My husband and I are now closer than we have ever been before.
2. I have released my old fears of sharing my spiritual experiences with
my family.
3. My family and friends helped me so much during the healing process.
4. It is now much easier for me to receive from others.
5. My awareness of my connection with Source/God is now stronger.
6. I have gotten clarity on what is really important to me.
7. I have a new sense of direction in my life purpose of helping
humanity evolve.
8. My faith and trust in myself and in life is stronger.
9. I am clear on how this whole experience has empowered me from within.
 When
we choose to see our experiences from a place of Love, we will find that
joy, peace, abundance, happiness, and clarity follows. The simple act of
setting your intention on choosing Love, will change your energy and
vibration. The Law of Attraction will then bring to you more Love.
It is my desire that my experience serve as a real-life example of the
power each one of you has within: the Power of Choice. Even when things
in your life do not seem to be going “your way,” you can change your
experience by focusing on what you desire. In my case, I had the option
to focus on my feelings of disappointment, failure, confusion and loss.
Instead, I made the choice to use this experience as an opportunity to
experience clarity, love, appreciation, healing, spiritual growth, and a
closer connection with my loved ones.
I believe the spirit of my baby is still with me and if we choose to try
to bring her into this world again, she will have a mom who is stronger,
wiser and more loving.
You are so powerful! I encourage you to use
your power of choice to consciously create a life filled with blessings.
Love,
Dumari
www.ChildrenLights.com
(C) July 2006
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